Firstly, I’m so happy to know that you were careful, that you thought about your triggers and what could help and hurt you, that shows a lot of strength and that is incredible.

Secondly, I’m very glad to hear this. I’ve been doing so well lately and I’m happy that it comes across, the struggle will always be in the background, but right now I’ve never done better, felt better, or been in a better place. It’s a whole new world - isn’t it?

<3 take care lovely. 

You are so, so, welcome. Whatever I managed to do to help you - I’m so glad for you. You’re doing a great job and I know you can keep up this amazing hard work. Take care, and enjoy these positive changes <3

I can’t tell you how to stop yourself because at the end of the day it is up to YOU to control your body, not ME!

Just remind yourself of why you need to eat healthier foods, thing of your goal, think of what veggies and protein do to your body„ and what cheeseburgers and icecream do your body. 

Indulge once in a while, so that you aren’t craving this forbidden food, but be careful with how often you do give in. 

they were horoscopes

then they became motivational pieces

then goals and plans

but I’m not changing my name, or the basis of where this all began, because I do plan to go back, when the time is right

tell someone

tell someone who can do something

right now

go

seriously

you deserve better

make this the last time.

when you see this message

that’s it

it starts NOW

Thank you so veryyyy much ! 

I started it because… gosh I don’t know anymore haha. At the time beturnerful was my photography blog, and wearegoing was filled with negativity. SO I was like… I need to promote something that is going to help people, not hurt them. And using the zodiac sign meant that people would feel like they could belong and be part of a certain group. So that happened !

And ideas for the pictures = submissions in my ask, feelings I have, or random thoughts that come to mind !

Flirting with the idea of stopping the blogging process. Sometimes it’s therapeutic, sometimes it’s absolutely painful and revolting. I always appreciate seeing messages like this, though, from people who actually genuinely care !

But I’m alright, been in and out of hospital for the past two weeks but still managing to stay in school and continue going to work. Exhausted from this thought - just want everything to get better at this point. 

I shave, because I’m so scared of wax and eppilating and all those other options. (I have super sensitive skin, who knows what would happen haha)

As for brand, I just buy the prettiest ones. I think it’s like bic - soleil. But any of those tv commercial brands are equally good. Shaving is silly. It doesn’t last long. But it does the trick fast. It becomes part of a routine. 

You can certainly see results in 5 weeks, absolutely, but you need to ensure that you aren’t going to let this ‘little pudge’ make or break your vacation, okay? No matter how much progress you manage to make, promise yourself that an inch or two won’t wreck your trip. There is SO much more than numbers in this world.

My best advice would be to do toning exercises that target your core, and try to consume a tiny tiny little bit less excess fats and sugars in your intake!

<3 thanks sweetheart, and absolutely best of luck on your own journey, and in all your own goals too ! <3

that is the first time I’ve seen someone spell that correctly

Um recently I was doing little yoga balance tricks and I fell forward on my forehead which you’d think would be painful but not too terrible seeing as I was home alone but I was actually infront of my balanced (better than I, evidently) phone which was engaged a skype video call. 

^ this. thankyou, entirely and wholeheartedly. I’m glad someone in a similar position recognizes and appreciates my effort. 

You need help, but you don’t need mine. You need help to understand why it is you so badly feel the need to change, why you are willing to go to every extent. I can’t tell you what I eat, when I eat it, how much I work out, or anything like that. I could tell you, but that would be of no help. At the end of the day what drives me is what matters, and I’m unhappy - a lot of the time, I’m still struggling - I’m still suffering. I look how I look and I weigh what I weigh for three reasons, diet and exercise and illness. You want to focus on the first two of those, not the third. 

Truthfully, I know it must be hard to feel like you are behaving healthily yet you see no changes. Sometimes the body takes time. Sometimes you need to try a hundred things before your body alters in any direction, but if you want to better your life and your health then it is worth taking that time.

Never could I tell you to starve your body, and run a hundred miles. That wouldn’t get you to your goals. There is no secret answer, though. It’s hard work. Making these changes and sticking to them is hard. But if you want it, you do it. 

I don’t know how much you weigh. You don’t know how much I weigh, but when you said “ i stoped going out because of thi sweight” it triggered something in me. I barely go out because of my body, as well. But it’s the mindset, not the number, that stops us.

Please take care. Please find peace. Please rely on your body to decide what is healthy for you.